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Tue, 17 Feb 2009 06:14:57 GMT

Hey peeps! It's been a ZILLION YEARS since I updated, I know, I know. Well I made a new journal because there were too many people I knew personally on this journal. So if you still want to keep in touch with me just leave me a comment and I'll message you my new blog link. Alrighty?

XoxO (Big kiss, little hug, little kiss, big hug! lol)

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.`×.,¸_¸,.¤´¯) Melody ♥
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Exploding Turkeys, Surgery, and a New School!

Mon, 26 Nov 2007 19:50:34 GMT

Xploding Turkeh'!:
(So it's a penguin and not a turkey, sue me xD)
So here I was, minding my own business, when suddenly my recooked Turkey leftovers decide to start smoking! So, naturally, I jab it with a fork to see what's going on right? Bad idea. I hear this huge popping sound and then IT EXPLODES on my poor unsuspecting plate! ... Sadness... I still ate it after it was done exploding though, probably shouldn't have now that I think about it....
Anyway! Yeah, Thanksgiving was sooo awesome (besides the exploding Turkey part)! I truly felt Thankful and honored to be celebrating Thanksgiving! :)
It may have been a really long time since I've updated, but as you can see my cooking skills have not changed one bit! lol!

Suurrgguurrryyyy:

As for my health (which was often a subject in my previous blogs) I've most certainly gotten over that poison Ivy that I talked about my last blog! But knowing me, of course there's something else bizarre going on in this body of mine! I recently found a very painful lump in my foot, it took many weeks to convince my mom to take me the doctor but when I finally got there.... gosh they did some weird stuff to me! I'll leave out the horrible details for those of you who are easily grosses out! lol.
First they started to cut my footsie, I just tried to think about peaceful waterfalls to distract me from the pain. But then I had to use the restroom, so I thought of something else to distract me :P Then they left for a moment and came back out with this metal thing, I didn't know what it was till he started using it to freeze my foot! It felt like I stepped into an icicle barefoot. When I looked at my foot it was white. I thought it was the frost, then I realized it was my skin... YIKES! O___O

Sooo now I can't walk on that foot and it's all beat up looking. I'm going back to the doctor this Friday. Can't wait *sarcasm*. To put it simply, by the end of all of this I'm going to have a large hole in my foot after all my surgeries and it'll probably be after Christmas before I can properly walk again (I'm kinda just limping around atm).. yikeeess! It does scare me a lot, but I know that no matter what goes on it was meant to happen. God knows everything about my life and he won't give me something that I can't handle, so it's going to be okay!

But you wanna know what DOES bother me? Every time I tell somebody I'm going to the doctor, they interrupt me and ask if I'm going for depression problems... eeeh, nope. Do you think I should? O_O Speak up now! lol. So yeah, lots of people know I'm going to the doctor, but they never take enough time to ~~shut-up~~ and ~~listen~~ to what's going on in my life! And people wonder why I don't talk much!?! Maybe if they were quiet and actually listened to what I say without interruption I would say something! :P *sigh* sorry about that! Mini rant *better now* ^_^

New School:

Oooh! Well things are going okay for me still as far as school goes! I'm currently taking a college course, online classes and homeschooled. I had actually spent most of my Senior first-semester in Public School, which was quite an adventure! I loved the opportunities there and everything, but there were some very rough and pervy people there, and me being the new girl I never got a break from it. There were a lot of things that didn't fit my needs there, so I popped back into my previous school systems. Still working hard though! I'll try to get some pictures off my camera and let you guys know all my crazy school stories next time I update!! I gotta tell you about my teacher who sat cross-legged on the lunch table! He was very unique! lol!

        Well I gotta run! My room needs cleaning, essays need to be finished and after all of that I'm pretty sure a video game needs to be played! lol. I shall return! ^_^
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.`×.,¸_¸,.¤´¯) Melody ♥
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.:Humbled:.

Sun, 06 May 2007 02:07:44 GMT

How come every time I come back to Xanga I think: "Oh gosh! I haven't updated in a bizzillion years!" ...
*thinks deeply about this while a microwave explodes in the distance* I guess it's just because I haven't clicked the update button.... Lazy much?
Okay, let me bring you up to speed with what's been happening in my life since I updated last, then I'll tell you about my horrendous adventure this week! *gasp!*
Let's see, in March I had Pneumonia (hated it), went to a Sadie Hawkins dance (loved it), and turned 17 years young (w00t!!!!!). In April I donated my hair again, this time 10 inches (last time it was 24 inches) of my hair to a child cancer patient. If anyone is interested in knowing what I look like now, here are some pictures:
Before & After:


Okay, so that's all the main stuff that I haven't written about yet... I would love to delve into more detail but I'm pretty worn out after getting back from the Hospital. Yep, once again my health gets me into a pretty dern big mess. But somehow, out of the whole thing I feel so much more peaceful now. Lessons are everywhere, you just have to be open to learning them. Even if it's the hard way.

Let me explain... It all started with this gorgeous prom dress... So I was thinking, greeny-blue dress, very purty, must take pictures of it - oh how about we take those pictures in the woods!!! Sounds good? Oh dear, NO! Who in their right mind would go into the woods with a low-neck prom dress?! Obviously not someone with sense in their mind *points a "I'm with stupid" sign at herself*. heh heh (slaps in a picture of me in the dress for a not-so-dramatic effect)

As soon as I finished taking the pictures I started getting weird marks on my neck. The next day it turned a strange color. And the next it got even worse, but you know what? I didn't think anything about it. lol. The next morning I was rudely awakened to my reflection of an unrecognizable face with a swollen and mangled neck and chest. Ok, now even for as blond as I usually act, that got my attention.

       Apparently, I am very allergic to poison ivy. A week went by of this stuff covering my body. But it wasn't just painful, it was embarrassing too. And for an already self-conscious girl this was a big deal. I couldn't leave the house or I'd get weird stares. People and friends either diverted their eyes from me or looked grossed out. I was the same person as I've always been, but I felt so small with the whole world looking at me. Even within my own home I got weird stares; my youngest brother kept calling me a freak. I have to admit that it really got to me. I got angry and I started yelling at him to shut up. It didn't phase him a bit, but as soon as those words slipped from my lips I regretted it greatly. You can't fight fire with fire, same goes for harsh words.
        Soon after I was whisked off to the Hospital. I got a shot and medication, but I went into shock after only being there for an hour...


Hard week? I'd say so! It seems silly for me to make such a big deal over poison ivy! I had no clue I was so painfully allergic to it. Even though this whole week I just wanted to give up and cry, I never did. Now I'm the kind of girl who cries over anything... Like there's this one cartoon character on TV any time he frowns I just want to cry. lol. Oh, ahem, anyway *serious voice again*
       On the road from the Hospital a song came on by Adie Camp, it was about doing things God's way. I realized; God had been keeping me close the whole time when I felt so messed up. Then another thought really came smacking into me; Do I have the right to complain about this?

      Yes I'm hurting, but think of all the things that have happened to me in the past. I have moved so many times I didn't even try building friendships for years, I used to be under the controlling emotions of cutting and anorexia, I have nearly died from health complications, I lost my youngest brother, lost my only sister... And then I thought, even all of these things can't even compare to what Jesus went through for me to live this life, and what have I been doing this whole time? Complaining about my life... That has to hurt Jesus, that He did so much for me, and all I did was hate every day of this week.

And the only thing I can say right now is... Oh God, I am so sorry that I ever complained about this week! I am so blessed. Forgive me that at times I forget how graced I am to live this life that you have given me!!!

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.`×.,¸_¸,.¤´¯) Melody ♥
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PS: To anyone who actually read all of that, here's a cookie for you! *Mmm!* Thanks for letting me spill out my heart into this journal entry. And please know that I am recovering nicely now! I've been singing and dancing all day. ;D I have a feeling another crazy cooking session with flying Melody-style is in dire need! Check back next time when I will (hopefully) be back to normal and to see what crazy things I get myself into this time! hehe! Till then!!! *waves goodnight, and has a staring contest with the happy cookie*

Peaceful :)

Wed, 21 Feb 2007 02:40:51 GMT

      I'm sitting here at the computer, journal in my lap, thoughts filling my mind. My brothers are laughing over random things as they always do. Roast and potatoes are cooking in the oven and it fills the air with a wonderful warm scent. The windows are open, life feels so free right now...

     Why the sudden change? Yesterday was such a mess, I was running away from my own feelings and struggles. Constantly fighting with emotions and frustrations of my life.

     I'm in shock and awe that even one day after such a tangled emotional mess, I'm calm and happy today. It took me a moment to realize why. Again and again I seem to learn and forget this very important thing about my relationship with God; I can't deal with life on my own. I need God. I try to figure out how to fix things by myself, frustrations are always running through my mind, I seem to have hit a wall in the road of my life and I can't get past it. I become weak and realize that there is nothing more that I can do myself. That's when I remember something that I should have done way before falling so hard; I need to give my struggles to God. He wants to help us, He desires for us to rest in Him.
     And even though life isn't perfect, with God holding me, today is peaceful. :)

God Bless!
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Edit: Hey guys, I can't decide which banner I want to use on my Xanga... A little help? I still kind of like the Peanut Butter cookie girl, but I like the colors from the "freedom" banner, and I just made a new one (credit: Dody49 for the flowery bg) and it's pretty and all but I don't know if I want to use it.... Which one would you guys like to see up there? ^_^

WHAAAAT?!?!?! Melody UPDATED?!?!?!?!??!?!?????

Fri, 16 Feb 2007 23:34:12 GMT

Update? From me? Yeah right. I must be seeing things....
Okay, so let me be honest in saying that I've not been "feeling" this whole Xanga thing after everyone-and-their-twice-removed-mother's-cousin started reading here (In other words, a lot of people).  One week I had over 1000 people visit my page! *faints* I was starting to be approached by people in my Church that I had never meet who read my journals. My entries were just "Man, today my milk exploded!!!" and "God has laid this on my heart..." those kinds of things, but I felt like I was really being opened up and read by more people than what I was comfortable with. It's scary feeling like I'm being examined, judged, spied on by some. But you know... I really miss talking to other girls and guys who were facing the same struggles as me. You can't ever help anyone if you never stick your neck out for them... So here I go, dive on in with me!

Ah, the past two months... They haven't been as emotionally crazy as last year (and for that I am thankful!) but life is constantly pushing and pulling me around no matter how firm I stand. God has really been dealing with things in my heart. Realizing just how small and how human my thoughts must be compared to God, I feel so... covered with dirt.
       This morning the table had crumbs all over it, I brushed them off, ate my breakfast and left. Aren't you glad that God doesn't just come down, brush us filthy people off and leave us? He doesn't do that, He comes to us, pursues us, washes off the filth and tries to teach us to walk a better way. Why do I keep going the wrong way when I know I should turn around? Some things are just so hard to turn away from: Sin.
       I've had a lot of conversations with God the past week, I want His help but I'm always so hesitant to ask. I want to fix it myself and pretend it never happened. But I know I should go to God again and again! I think it's amazing that we can talk to God about things like these, He listens. Man, most of my own friends wouldn't even take the time to read all of this, and God listens and feels through every word! That pretty much rocks my socks out of the galaxy!!!

Save the children and throw out the Peanut Butter- it's taken it's revenge!!!
I don't know about anyone else, but when I hear the words "Peanut Butter" I must find out why it's being talked about ('Cause, you know, I might be able to eat some...) So I was really surprised when it was being talked about on the news. Yep yep, there was some sort of bacteria in the Peanut Butter that we bought, so we threw it out. No wonder why I was getting sick! YIKES!!! My excitement for peanut butter cookies has kinda been scared off, so now I must find a new food to cheer for in the meantime! haha! Yes, YOU must help me find one! Okay our contestants are.... Waffles, Pizzaz, and Thai noddles! YESH! VOTE VOTE VOTE~~!!!!~~

Alright, last for my not-so-wondermously-awesome entry, we have... My short film!
Duun duun duuuuunnn!!!
Not must to say about it, other than it's in English, aaaand it's super spooky and super cheesy! I've made a few videos, though some of them aren't on the Internet yet, and others are on YouTube but I'm kinda shy to advertise their lameness. hehe. SO! Here is my Short film, "The Magic Hole"

Tis crazy, yes? The outtakes are even crazier, so cover your hair and watch it!! Here's the outtakes: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ukM1v1Sh6SQ

Okie dokies, that's all I've got for now! I hope all of you guys will have an amazing weekend!
God Bless!!!
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.`×.,¸_¸,.¤´¯) Melody ♥
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Christmas and the New year :)

Sun, 31 Dec 2006 21:35:14 GMT

Dun dun duuunnn, it's time to update again! ^_^
Merry -extremely late- Christmas, and Happy -on time- new year! :]
I'm still listening to x-mas music, in fact a rock version of "O holy night" is playing right now. hehe!
Christmas eve and the big day was sooo wonderful! Ryan gave me an awesome necklace and bracelet, they're so beautiful! I gave him a Pressie too! Woooh! hehe. From family and relatives I got a lovely little camera and some pieces for my PC so it would run better (Soooo thankful for that! Now it won't jam up every time I leave the PC by it's self). Oh, and I also got a rock. lol! It was an awesome rock though!

But even as nice as these things are, I would have been just as happy had I not gotten anything. Earlier this month our credit card number was stolen and we thought we wouldn't have any money to celebrate with. We got our money back a week before Christmas, but it let me realize just how fortunate we are already and that it's really not about the presents. It's Christ's birthday, and I really saw that this year.

And... Random fact here, I have eaten so much this week I can finally say that my hips have no lying skills at all. Because they're definitely not shy in showing the fact that, yes, I ate most of those big holiday meals. But do I feel guilty for it? Not really. It's the Holidays!

Okie, that's all I've got time for. hehe. I hope that you are all having a wonderful week! God Bless you!
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Read this for the kitten... You know you want to. xD

Sat, 02 Dec 2006 22:27:02 GMT

WHY is it not a Holiday today?! I demand to know!!! ... I hereby officially make this day: Kitten day. And if you don't celebrate, then when the kittens take over the world they're going to feed you the cheap brand of pet food! Connect with your inner feline today...
Okay, that's going a bit too far, even for my standards. xD

But even if today really ins't a holiday (don't tell the kittens I said that), last week's Holiday, Thanksgiving(!!!), was great!! It's the first Thanksgiving that I can remember that I haven't been really sick, so that was awesome. I baked 70 PEANUT BUTTER COOKIES (and they were all eaten in less that two days... I. HEART. THEM.!.!.! ). My little Brother and I ran around the house being totally hyper and playing video games and goofing off the whole day. It was surprisingly very realising, just being silly and enjoying the day. I'm very thankful that, as I am for every thing the God has given me. My only regret is that I don't thank Him enough for those gifts of life...

Now for the big "WHY the heck Melody is talking about cats so much today?" Answer: I haaaaave two new kittys!! =D Well, kinda. They're strays that I've been feeding for the past few weeks. One is a small female gray kitten with stripes and no tail (), I've fed her but she won't let me pet her yet. :'(. Then there's Tom Tom. He makes me laugh, every time I pet him he stands up on his two back paws! lol. He's so silly. My Dad says he looks like Garfield, what do you think? :

aww cute kitty... OK now for the weather forecast: Today is 90% Sooo stinkin' COLD! As I'm typing there is a wonderful ray of light shining through the window, maybe that will keep me warm today. :] I've been carrying around one of those big hot water packs for the past two days to keep my temperature up. Yesterday it was stuffed under my jacket, it probably looked like I was smuggling a whole cake or something. lol Actually, that doesn't sounds like a bad idea! *Leaves* ..... *Sits back down 5 minutes later with frosting oozing out of her pockets*.

Oh, and I'm getting more sleep now days! =D Yeah... like 12 HOURS! WHAT?! I'm taking some medicine to help me sleep, I'd say it's working! Though it says it should only help you sleep for 7 to 8 hours, sooo I don't know what's up with all the sleep-ige. It's better than the 3 or 5-ish hours that I used to get, but sleeping half of the day is just kind of creepy!! Anyway, that was a weird tid-bit of information there. (Btw, if I never update again I'm probably still sleeping. )

Last thing (I promise! xD) we walked 10,000 miles last week to see a creepy light!! Okay, okay, so maybe it was more like 3 miles, but it felt longer, especially since it was in the dark. Honestly I'm still trying to figure out what we were looking for, but it would probably help if we were on the right path. xD For those who didn't go that probably sounds really confusing, but for those who did go, I think we all have worn our shoes down by a few inches.

Ah, well I need to get back to work (yes, I know, it's a Saturday. Maybe I'll be ahead enough to have a day off next week :] )
See you all again soon!

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    (PS: If I haven't gotten around to replying to your messages or phone calls, I am so sorry! I'm so unorganised right now, but I hope to reply to you all soon! ^_^)

Say what? Oh! Happy Thanksgiving! :D

Thu, 23 Nov 2006 01:02:32 GMT

Time for my monthly update! hehe. Apologies for not being around much, I've had lots going on.... So uhm, how do I write one of these again?

CD covers with eyes, Videos of Hair getting EATEN, and lack of oxygen to the brain! :
Welp, welp, In the past month I've done just about everything! Laughed so hard I snorted AND cried? Check. Spent so long talking to pals I think I can still hear them talking even after they've left? Check. Took a trip and got lost? Check. Taken photos of every living thing on the planet? Check. Tripped while talking on the phone? Check. Have a secret project going and it's driving you nuts not being able to talk about it?..... Heh. So, yep I'm doing good!

* Concerning my last entry, no I did not get picked for the CD cover. *sniffles* She ended up going for a cover with a crystal ball and some chick's green eyes randomly floating in the air... Not very classy says I, but I have to admit, very original. *thumbs up*
* Our youth group did a skit, lots of dancing and substituting when I forgot what the heck I was doing. hehe. It turned out very well though and I was beaming with excitement from it for two days afterwards!
* Oh, I am officially addicted to YouTube now. I'm going to put some of my videos up there, such as my cat chewing off 6 inches of my hair. lol. I'll post the links when I get it up, but first I must add some dramatic music to it. :P
* Youthy group also went to "Planet Wisdom" and we had a blast. That trip has always been really hard on my health and I never get enough sleep, I almost passed out on the van but luckily we stopped off at a gas station and I got out for some air. Sometimes I think air is like totally good for the brain and stuff. ^___^ =P

Testimony finally given publicly:
I'm no good at speaking, small talk terrifies me. So ooh hey, let's just go up there and talk about some of the most painful things that have ever happened in my life. Piece of cheese...cake. I wish it was that easy. But God remained faithful to His promise when He told me that if I trust Him He will comfort me and give me the strength to go up there.
After I gave my testimony I had no idea how people would treat me, I didn't know if I would be looked down upon or comforted. The reaction was far more quiet and unspoken than I thought it might be, but I could see it in their faces. Some people came up to me with tears in their eyes and gave me hugs, others won't talk to me much anymore.
I didn't feel really good like I thought I might after the speech, but I didn't feel bad either. I felt... Peaceful. It was like all of this, going up there and sharing what I had to say, no matter how painful... It seemed natural. I'm glad, but that makes me think that I'm probably going to be doing this again. And when God leads me to do that, I pray that I will have courage to do this again and again through pain or fear. If it touches some one's life then every thing that I went through was worth it, just for them.
Here's the link to my testimony: http://www.xanga.com/Grace_of_Tears/516080939/now-you-may-understand-.html
(For those of you who have already read it, I updated it with my speech version. It takes a deeper look into the health issues that made my personal struggle with God so much harder. I completely left that out before.)

HEY! Think about this:
Let's imagine something, shall we? Are you doing it? Try harder! O.k. You walk into a new class at the beginning of the school year, and none of your friends from last year are in this class. You see a fairly nice looking person and you sit by him. You say hi, he looks at you and replies with an "..uhm, hey" and then turns to his other friends. Of course he doesn't hate you, but does he care? Not really. No one expects him to. So you sit somewhere else, and again you introduce yourself. The person smiles, says hi and strikes up a conversation about her hopes for the new school year and asks what yours are.
Now. Which person would you rather be around? The person that talked to their friends while ignoring you, or the girl that talked with you even though she didn't know you? Which person would rather want to be known for, and which one are you right now?

... Man, what kind of a person have I been? I've been a total jerk this week and it's been killing me. With all of my health disabilities sometimes I get upset and it makes me irritable. Hurting gives me a reason to be irritated, but it doesn't give me a right to. Ouch. But that's very true, and I need to work on remembering and acting on that.
I wasn't putting my whole heart into the friendships around me. In fact, I was breaking them down, nothing huge, it was only a bad mood, but one bad mood can effect more people than you might realize. Smile and get a smile back. Be grumpy, and well, you're not exactly going to be treated like anyone's best friend.

God has really been reminding me that I should be putting my whole heart into every thing that I'm doing... Every thing? Does that mean... School?! And.. Listening to certain people when I might rather just kind of, like, maybe, fall asleep (not that implying that any of you are boring! Just an example ^_^).. Hey, I can put my whole heart into sleeping! I don't think that's what he was talking about though.
Putting my whole heart into every thing, going out of my way just to say hi or doing that school assignment when I'd rather be watching TV. Everything. If you do something for 2 weeks it becomes a habit, so I challenge you, put your heart into EVERY THING good that you do for the next 2 weeks and watch to see if things change! I trippple dog dare ya!

Welp, I'm going to go randomly buy some "I've been sitting here so long I'm numb" cards and send them to myself. I'm sure Wal-Mart has those around somewhere...
Till next time! May God Bless You greatly! *huggles*

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.`×.,¸_¸,.¤´¯) Melody ♥
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PS: Check out my new MySpace layout!!! http://www.myspace.com/angel_rocker_chick

An update gasp from the land of far away-ish-ness

Fri, 27 Oct 2006 00:14:22 GMT

*Stares at monitor* O_O *Burns hole in screen*

Aaaaaaaaah I haven't updated since the Jolly rancher ages! (Sorry, candy on the brain)
I am in the strangest of moods today! So why am I telling you this? WELL, that is simply a question that I had an answer to, but I'm not going to tell you because I forgot. Heeeeeeeeeeeehee. But I guarantee that candy had nooothing to do with it. In fact, I think all of the sweets have gone to my head resulting in larger brain mass which clearly indicates that I am.. Smarterlious. You can tell because I'm using words like "resulting" and "Indicates" and "am"....

Mmk, so what is the Melody up to? *thinks* ................... Apparently not much.
But really! Last week I was checking to see how some old friends were doing, and before I knew it I ended up spending all day on an art cover for musician ReBekka Williams.   So far Jackie Wu and I are working on giving her different cover options, I really hope that he gets his art the cover though, he's living on his own and paying for his costs, so he needs it more than I do.
   Though I have to admit, the fact that my family and I only have $100 for our entire Christmas this year isn't exactly spiffy (It looks like we'll have to split that $100 between 6 people. I might be able to buy... *thinks* Uhm, once I've figured out what is available for the price of $16 and 66 cents I'll get back to you on that ^_^). But that's perfectly cool, I'm a girl that really doesn't need much (Other than loooooooots of Peanut Butter cookies and hanging out with awesome people! ).  Oh! And as I was saying; Art work - this is what I painted:

Random Stuff! YEAH Alrighty right! Welp, I've got some work let to finish, so I can't write as much as I usually do (You're all probably very excited about that though! xD). So we'll go through the rest of the stuff real quick :
   o We did a Drama performance with our youth group last Sunday. I was so out-of-time with the music, but the crowd doesn't know any different so it really doesn't matter! lol. But everybody did a really great job, I am so glad that it well!
     o I'm going to a creepy corn maze this weekend! Capital AAAAAAA! Twill be scary!
       o yesterday I broke part of our car window and it got stuck down. And, of course, it was raining really hard at the time... haha, my right shoulder was quite wet by the time we got to town. At least I was able to fix it after the car stopped. Yay!
         oooo Other than that, stuff has been going on. Yeah, just stuff. Life stuff. But life is good.

   ~Okie Dokkie, I gotta run, but I thought I would give you all a little update from the life of... well, MElody. Till next time!
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.`×.,¸_¸,.¤´¯) Melody ♥
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(PS: I'm giving my testimony next month. Pray for me. It's gonna be rough. I still cry and shake every time when I just read through it, speaking it infront of a Church is going to be another challenge altogether. I'm pathetic at speaking (Yeah, even small talk. lol), but I told God was ready for a challenge and this came up a few hours after I told Him that. Maybe next time I'll just not bring up the whole challenge thing... haha. Prayers would be soooooo much appreciated! <3)

Watch out for that cow abducting UFO...

Fri, 29 Sep 2006 00:37:07 GMT

Heeeeeeey!!!! What's up, what's up, what's up????

Sowwy for not updating lately, I promise I'm not ignoring my poor blogy *Pats her computer softly.... Yikes! why am I being affectionate to my PC?? O_o*. Life has just been crazy for the past few weeks, and my body hasn't really wanted to keep up *Pokes herself*
My week had one too many stinky days as far as my "Stink-o-meter" is concerned (yes, it's very rare ability to tell how much your week sucked). I tried writing a entry about all the things that went wrong this week, but then after I wrote it I felt better and didn't want to read it again, so OH! Hold on, the hamburgers are burning!!! ! Oh man..... *Runs to the kitchen*
     *A few moments later* Mkk, I'm back, and apparently those "hamburgers" have been abducted by aliens, because the only thing on my stove is chicken... Just goes to show how much I was paying attention to what was cooking. Haha, let's forget that ever happened.

.:Vertacle Fest:.
So, since I last updated, I went to a concert called vertical fest with our awesome youth group. A 9 H...O....U....R. concert!! O____O! We were there for the first two bands, some screamy rock band (meh) and then the second was an all girl rock band called Ilia. I liked them, I thought they were really good. They're a lot more down-to-earth then the other bands too, cause you can actually send them a message and they'll reply. Coolies!
Though by then my ears were already hurting and others were hungry, so we went to the mall to stretch our legs a bit and got something to eat. I wish I could have enjoyed the concert and the mall more, but no matter what I did I felt pretty miserable. Things just kind of overloaded my system again.  It's life, I suppose. But I did finally start feeling better by the end of our visit to the mall, and I surely didn't mind the kick butt video game at the arcade. lol.

When we went back to the concert "Seventh day slumber" was playing, and man they were sooo good. And the main singer's testimony... So good. It helped a lot. Sometimes when you're feeling really low you want someone to cheer you up and that is amazing, but other times you just need someone to get down to your struggling level and show you that there is hope. Thinking about all that the lead singer had been through made my problems seem less in comparison. Most people might find that frustrating, but I found it humbling. So often my problems seem so huge, but after seeing how much he changed after something so terrible it gave hope to things that I was facing. They had an alter call after that and I went up. Sometimes I don't know why I go up there, all I know is that I feel so far away from God and I want to get closer. I felt better after that, well, once I was done crying anyway (I should so get a big fat wet trophy for most tearful moments ).
I still haven't been myself since then though, where have the Happy Dances been hiding??  I hope what ever it is going on in me will be over soon. It's been two weeks, and frankly (Why is it called "Frankly"? why not "Peterly" or something?) I'm ready to back to normal. ^_^ I'm getting closer though, Hamburgers only get abducted from kitchen when I'm having a normal day. lol.

Oh! And I almost forgot to tell you about the last part! They were selling glow sticks, hehe, and Ryan bought me one (yay!)! So wore it on my head like a halo during the last part of the concert. (The glow stick's adventure isn't over yet, but you have to wait to know what happens to it! xD). Last up on the stage was none other than Kutless! Woohhooo!! Man, they rocked! I finally felt well enough to really enjoy this part of the concert and I jumped along with the rest of them. I thought it was funny, everybody jumping around like little chipmonkies. I had to giggle at myself for actually liking it.

(Pictures!! Left- Some screamer band... lol. Middle- Our youth group! Right- Kutless!!!)

.:Okay, now for the adventure of the Glow Stick. Muwhahahaha!!!!:.
Well, you see this glow stick was the kind that you can bend, and considering how much I like to bend everything that is bendable (and some things that aren't) - I had to twist it. I eventually got it into a small wrist sized ball (it was originally the size of my waist. Uhm, though my waist isn't that big so... ANYWAY xD).
Satisfied with my accomplishment of bendyness, I hung it on my bedroom door once I got home. I took a shower and got ready for bed, by then I completely forgot about it and walked into my room half asleep (it was 2 am). And, of course, what happens to the zombie girl who is dreaming of Zzzz's? She gets a very rude awakening. The next thing I knew I heard a huge popping sound and watched in terror as my balled up glow stick exploded, coating the door with slimy glowing substance, and then land with a thud onto my floor.  It scared the fuzzies outta me!!! I finally screamed a few seconds after it hit the floor (hey, it was 2 am! Yeah, and I'm kind of slow anyway.. xD).

Since my door was glowing I couldn't get to sleep with it like that, and I knew by the morning I wouldn't be able to see it in the light to clean it up then. So, I got the mop and some napkins and tried to clean my room. I got down on my knees to clean the mess on the floor, and don't ya know it, as soon as I got down there the glow stick blew up again - this time covering half of my bedroom, my pants and my hands (didn't even bother to check my face.. haha, too scared to know). How many times is this going to scare me??? At first I just wanted cry because this was weirding me out and I was sooo tired. But then I thought about it and started laughing - my room was freakn' glowing!
It took forever to clean it up though (It took until 3 in the morning before most of it was gone! O_O), because wiping it only spreads it around the floor and made even more mess. My trashcan was glowing for three days with all of the glowing napkins in there. lol!

(Note: Yes, I do find it odd that things in my house blow up on a monthly basis... Hmm! lol. Okay, now for pictures!! -Yes, I took pictures of it. lol-.) Ah yes, to the left we have the glow stick after it blew off of the door. But dangit, the camera only picked up on the large blobs, I'm really disappointed that it couldn't show the millions of tiny little glowing dots all over my room *pouts*. Ah well, anyway, the picture in the middle is after it blew up in my face when I tried to clean. lol. And then the one on the right was me trying to get a close up of the blobs, it turned out okay since by room was completely dark other than the glow stuffs. Ehh, not very impressive compared to the real thing, but I had to show the pictures anyway!

.:Homecoming:.
Homecoming was pretty cool for my first dance experience. I kinda danced, if you can call my attempt "dancing". It felt more like I was imitating a worm falling out of an airplane. lol . I guess that's what I get for not ever being to a dance before. Well, there was that one time that we had a Home school dance, but it seemed so farmer-square-dancing style that I conveniently got sick that week. hehe. So was Homecoming groovy dude? It had it's moments, so I liked it.
Though I would have probably died if Ryan hadn't been there, I mean I was horrendously attacked by glow sticks like every 10 SECONDS!!!!!!!! .... Okay, so it only happened three times the whole night, but still!!! One of them noodles hitting mah poor brain just once could have caused brain cell losses and such!!! (<--See, nothin' behind those eyes! THAT COULD HAVE BEEN MEEE!!!!!!) *Ahem* Yesh, he heroically battled them to the death *Imagines knight in shining armor* .... lol. My imagination gets the best of me sometimes (but I'm sure you couldn't tell. Shh, it's still a secret!!!) xD
So anyhoo, as far as I'm concerned that's awesome , and, there is a cat standing on my foot.

(Last picture for the night!! Aww... ^_^ Oh, and check out the bouquet, tis as big as I am! That's awesome)

Yep yepps, so that's been my exciting two weeks! Oohh, those chicken-looking-"Hamburgers" are finished! *Shifty eyes* I shall go eat them.
I hope you all will have a WONDERMOUS week!! God Bless you!!!

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